I really didn't like Cesar at all before this story, but now I'm starting to see that he's a decent guy who's just making very poor choices. If only he could show his friends who he really is...
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it gave me a a new perspective on his treatment of Chug (thought it doesn't excuse it), instead of being fueled by homophobia, Cesar mistreats Gabriel due to a misture of performative homophobia + projection of self-hatred due to internalized homophobia + envy that Chug has the courage to be out and proud with Dude while he can't do the same with Felix
Yeah, it's complicated. On one hand I feel better about him knowing that he, like, has an actual heart and can be kind to Felix at least. But on the other hand, it almost makes it worse that he mistreats Gabe largely just for liking men when he's the exact same. I get that feelings are hard, internalized homophobia is rough, they're living through a bad era for those who like men, etc. I understand why Cesar is acting how he is. The situation just sucks for everyone involved.