I think the character in the game ISN’T the creator lmao
I am a person who has struggled with suicidal ideation. I probably will for the rest of my life.
At the same time, I am trying my best to live what I feel is a life that's worthy of continuing.
Making video games has really helped me not feel suicidal. At GDC when I presented my game, a group of men came up and laughed and pointed at my while playing it.
I thought I would be ashamed and horrified but I found I respected myself enough that I did not give a fuck.
I hope one day, instead of caring about what random people are doing on the internet and having to hurt them, you find your community and dreams that are worth pursuing.
It's tough but I hope you can find value without caring about what others are doing. There are billions of people in the world and it isn't realistic to expect to like all of them.