Take your time to grieve. A part of your life has been taken from you, it's normal to lose motivation from that. You are amazing for getting this far, and I hope you understand how far you've made it even with life being the way it is.
Thank you, tinygremlinqueen :') True... every time my doggo leaves me, they also took a small part of my heart. I still remember the names of my doggos... from the first to now... I'm a bit better now but I think I'll need just a little more time :')