I see and i'm sorry to hear!
In my case it was because at the time i started to know that i was not straight there was still a lot of homophobia and also my father was born in a pretty conservative country (not that it means that you are automatically against whatever right but in his case he got raised that way). So i never really told people. TBH i feel much more comfortable being more on the closeted side anyways so in my case it didn't "scar" me. My mother isn't tho till this day really accepting of me not identifying as straight so i'm glad. I'm from Europe and we progressed compared to a few years and i'm pretty sure it's possible wherever you are in Asia too ^^
I hope wherever you are that people will be more tolerant to everyone regardless of identity and in all other places too!
Lgbtq+ rights are human rights too!
Never forget that you are not alone and that there are many spaces online where people from the community and allies can talk about the struggles of that or just have a safe space in general where it's more about just being able to be who you are ^^
Take care and Happy closeted Pride ^^