that's fine man, you start from somewhere and improve. As long as you don't quit you can get better and that's why there's amazing communities here for you
if you don't like an engine then don't settle. There's a lot of engines and depending on your goals, you might like one over the other. My recommendations are either Unity or Godot for starters
well then godot is probably good for you because it's right below Unity and it's for a lot of developers who might not have the greatest pc cause it's a lightweight engine
