I get Everything Everywhere All at Once vibes both in the attention to novelty and in the main theme of love being the way out of dreading one's own existential birth.
I moved to a city recently and I often encounter folks who don't seem to be able to stop speaking. It is as if all of their thoughts just come out of the mouths compulsively non-stop, then they end up responding to the fact that they just said the thing that they said. I think that I'm like that too; the notable difference is that I can not say the things I'm thinking out loud so it gives me more opportunities to question my thoughts, give more attention to a chosen mental object more easily.
My teachers talk about concentration and ethical conduct being foundations for opportunities to become unbelievably beneficial. I think this is true. The more I restrain myself from harmful or compulsive behavior, the more I can concentrate. The more I can concentrate on the kindnesses that I have received, the more opportunities I see to benefit myself and others. It is interesting to watch my own mind transforming into something different than a feedback loop which is trying to entertain itself.