Desiran, nice to see you here!
Speaking of reaction time, I'm sorry for this late reply as I was going to reply back to "KinkyKikker" as soon as I saw the email notification, but in all honesty, I was so reluctant to reply back because I couldn't conjure up how I feel with myself, rather it be wanting to create NSFW/other types of content, when it comes to myself I tend to stumble in circles either rambling or not being able to speak up or even worse not being able to do something I wanted to do or could've done.
I'm going to attempt to refrain from being as repetitive as I can, & simply say this-
With all cliches or such set aside, I have the need/want to create things but I keep holding myself back due to many things hindering me from being/wanting to be successful, I will admit the fact that I blame myself for all the mistakes I've done & made, which placed me into limbo many years ago but yet I grew very lazy in the recent past year or so, I don't mean to vent here or even to y'all, I'm just honestly lost within my ways, that is my main point, I still want to try but I just can't seem to progress under a fake happy facade I used for the past few years now, I understand that I'm an adult(21yrs) & should be able to be independent, but my excuse is I never had the proper guidance-
I will stop right there as I believe I said enough...