Thank you for making this. I can relate to feeling confused.
I spent years in my youth agonizing over my sexuality. Was I gay, was I straight, what was I? I did settle into the gender identity of nonbinary pretty comfortably, it does feel like it fits, but what about my sexuality? I’m 22 and I still don’t know. Am I a lesbian? Using that word for myself feels uncomfortable as a trans masculine person because it associates me with being a woman, But I’ve always related to lesbian romances more than straight ones. And lesbians can be butch, even trans masculine, like Feinberg, right? Still it doesn’t quite feel comfortable. Is that because it isn’t right for me or because I have internalized shame? And I don’t even know if I am romantically attracted to people. Do I like th idea of a relationship more than a real one? Could I be aromantic? I feel like I should know by now, but I don’t. It’s… frustrating.
That’s a long way to say I relate to what you are feeling.