man, ive noticed you in ALL the comments these days, being insanely incredibly rude to a lot of devs while touting the fact that you made a "very special unique" game, that you simultaneously make excuses for why its such poor quality (and why it shouldnt get any criticism *at all*). maybe if you weren't so mean all the time, people would want to help you make better games. but as it stands, i can't imagine anyone looking at your black hole of negativity and wanting to get involved.
im sorry youre in such a hard place that this is what you have to do to feel better. seriously. ive been so internally angry and frustrated before that i wanted to just tear the world down. but all youre doin is burning yourself. i wish you the best my dude, and that you find the happiness you so desperately need.