I know what it feels like to try and feel a bit like your best (at the time) is being dumped on...
No judgement from me. I have done the same plenty of times.
I encourage you to keep trying, even if it is with other projects. You have potential and although reviews can be cutting, it is worth it to see how far you have come from your own skill and talent.
I wish you all the best in your fixture projects and hope for updates, or changes to this one day... But I won't blame you for feeling that it isn't worth it.