Thanks for giving it a go.
It once was a "beat myself up" thing, but no longer.
I make games for me.
I stream for me.
I participate in game jams for me.
Niche is not a badge of shame, but of strength.
Some people chase validation and recognition.
I make quirky little games in a quirky old language with a quirky style that resonates with some, and other people find strange.
Being mainstream can go to hell.