God, I've been thinking about this for hours since I read it. I even read it twice and thrice even! And every time I do, I also think about the child I knew long ago thinking these same thoughts that Ewelina did.
Since growing up from being that child, it's also bothered me how some authors treat suicide as shock value. I have a planned game that's centered around suicide and dying and I'm always constantly worried about whether I should go forward with publishing it because I fear im not giving the subject matter the gravitas it deserves. I'm grateful for games like yours that capture and emphasize the reality of how exhausting and terrifying it is to be numb like that and not be able to get out of feeling like no matter how hard you try. It gives me more to think about how to handle this subject in my work.
Thank you for making this, and I'm glad you're still here. I also hope the food you cook is always delicious.