I'm trans in the opposite direction, but I've had similar experiences. It's impossible to talk about, because of the shame and the feeling that it was all my fault, that I chose to do it. This game was like a mirror for me. Knowing that other people have this experience of shame and blaming themselves and still are able to accept that it was traumatizing was just so validating. I definitely cried while playing it, and wrote down some of my favorite quotes. Thank you so much for making this, and I'm sorry. I wish healing and happiness for you.