Hello all! My name is DeeDee, and I've wanted to make things for as long as I can remember.
Every day, almost every hour, I'm generating ideas for impactful scenes and character moments, and I'm certain that if I could only get them out there, there would be an audience that would grow to love them. I've dabbled in prose, in game development, in animation, and in countless other mediums with the intention of finally honing my skills and executing on the potential everyone says they see in me.
However, the only one I've had any success in so far is fanfiction, and I think there's a reason for that. I have some difficulty coming up with completely original worlds and concepts- and, as a result, I find it hard commit to projects where I'd have to lay all of the foundations for a new story from scratch. I'm not confident enough in my original characters and settings to feel like anyone would appreciate the effort. I'm my own worst critic, for sure, and it's just easier for me to bail on a passion project before anyone has an opportunity to be disappointed. Or worse- bored. I set completely unrealistic standards for myself, and I judge my work too harshly to ever meet them. Try as I might, my attempts to become a writer always seemed doomed to fail.
And that's a very disheartening realization to come to. It's especially disheartening to come to it repeatedly, as something in my heart still yearns for the opportunity to bring a story to life, but... Over time, I had started to come to the conclusion that I simply couldn't do it.
Now, though. I've been doing some thinking, and it makes more sense that, maybe, I just can't do it alone. The day where I bring all of my own precious, personal stories into the world may yet be a ways off, but I still want to write. I want- more than anything- to make something real, to make something knowing that it will reach people.
This is- if I'm lucky, at least- where you come in.
If you have a concept- a game, or a world, or anything- and you need someone like me to help you execute on your vision, I would love to hear from you. I would love to help you make your ideas a reality. It's clear to me now that trying to make a masterpiece while locked inside my own head is never going to end well- I need something else, someone else, to give me direction, criticism, and support.
Thank you for reading this. Please, if you have an idea, or a question, don't hesitate to leave a reply.
- DeeDee
tl;dr: pretentious fanfic author discovers the power of teamwork, begs internet strangers to boss them around