It definitely takes time to get good at something, especially art! (it took me like... idk how long but several years to get good at drawing... but even so some people are just talented no matter what), sometimes it's better to just let go the feeling of failure & just think the journey as an experiment, if it fails well... try again! If it lands, keep going, you got something right! (I guess it's similar to this game, it's a mish-mash of inspirations that works together, but some of it doesn't so there's still room to tweak/edit stuff). Your style is never final btw! it's always evolving, even if you don't even notice it!
Combining things is 100% dependent your own preferences, I personally keep a note of stories & game ideas that I want to tell on Notion. It syncs to all of your devices, so I'll just quickly jot down inspirations whenever they struck, then I'll just store them until I need them, in which I'll browse through them until I find something that I particularly like & fits the style I'm going for.
Keep in mind, most of it is... not great/quite cringe XD but those are the stories/game ideas that I want to read/play but... nobody is making them!!! We're creators, we can make things happen. Sometimes I forgot about that & I'm just waiting for something that will never come, so I'm taking things on my own hands!
Also yeah for the YouTube video part, Thank you for the words of encouragement! The goal of it is mostly just an outlet for me to have fun & share my stories, it's not about making it big or become famous & earn money from it (if that happens I'm 100% not complaining XD). I'm trying to give myself room to fail so it's alright for me to experiment with wierd new wacky video ideas/editing style ;)
For skillshare... it depends... there's some courses that I really liked on skillshare but most of the time I prefer learning from YouTube videos. Skillshare is pretty great for beginners (it's great to learn when everything's structured neatly) but for more intermediate/advanced users they're not that great in my opinion (some advanced topics & most unity tutorials aren't even on the platform!). It doesn't hurt to try it out though, I'm using a 2 month free trial right now to learn Blender & Procreate Dreams, defo planning to create 3D games (and maybe perhaps VR games too in the future, who knows!) so it's quite a nice foundation to learn stuff I'm new at.
The promo code is DREAMBIG btw if you want to try it out (It's from a collaboration between Procreate Dreams & Skillshare)
Seriously good luck on your journey, please share more about it whenever you have the time to do so, (followed your twitter so I'll be seeing your journey there) Cheers! ;)