Hey, hey, breathe, it's good, you're good.
I'm not going to say I know the feeling EXACTLY, everyone has their own stuff to deal with. But I had some pretty rough times from high school all the way up till...a few years ago really. Trying to deal with shitty living situations, financial stress and yes, definitely sexuality stuff (though that resolved a lot sooner than the others). But I'm definitely no stranger to that overwhelming feeling of being buried under shit. And being younger can make it worse in some ways, because you have more energy, which means there's more energy for the anxiety to work with and run wild. The good news is there's obviously a lot of advantage to being young too, most obviously that you've got time.
Take that time. Sort out priorities. Triage like they do in ER, try to figure out what's most important, where you're taking the biggest hits or, on the other side, where the easiest wins are, and start stacking them up. Don't force yourself to do stuff too fast or too early, but do try to make steady progress on what's important. Build it up over time.
And again, I'm really sorry to hear something you enjoyed so much got ruined. Not because you can't enjoy my silly little game, but because like I said, that stuff really is a big part of life, and can be really positive and helpful with the right people. But again, just do what you can to build, slowly. As someone who's struggled with depression and definitely still has some trust issues, human connections are still important, despite the shitty things so many people do. I obviously don't know you, or all the specifics of your situation, but I do at least somewhat remember what it was like to be a teenager, and yeah. I'll just say that if I was able to get past some of the stuff that seemed really dire at that point, your chances are probably pretty good too. Just let yourself take the time you need. Not too fast, not too slow.