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I'm sorry if I'm being a bother. But I keep thinking about this game and the parallels between the main characters depression and my own.

The main character believes all kinks and fetishes should be accepted. I understand being open-minded is good. But how you can accept some things that go against who you are? For me BDSM, cheating, gore porn, beastiality, and other super hardcore stuff just disgust me. And my sister accused me of being a baby. Not saying those things are things I should like. But that because I was too scared to leave my comfort zone and always stick to just romance and sweetness that it closed doors on any relationships outside of highschool.

I've been accused of being boring and approaching relationships like a Disney movie character. But to me I feel like I reduce myself to a panting lowly animal if I just ignore my sexual hang-up. And act on lust, comfort zone be damned.

I don't know what to do to find woman that would be sync up with me. Even in the game I tried to focus on Bri, Lea, and Jen the most. Seeking to just have romance and happy regular sex. But my sister and "friends" say that doesn't maintain an adult relationship. Being wild, sneaking around, spicing things up does. But that's not who I am.

(Slight spoilers)

I'm not even into exhibition but I liked Lea so I endured it to make sure she knew I was interested. I didn't like Deb that much but I figure when she showed kindness that her domme moment would be gentle and loving and not full of insults. I'm still unhappy I played out that one. It wasn't as bad as it could be. But it didn't feel right. Bri I never got past friends. And Jen I let her know I love her but refused to have sex with to keep from ruining her and the main character's life. We just cuddled. And with Kim it was the final straw. No way I could go full Snake for that. I got no beef with Pete to justify that.

What I'm asking is, do you think I've wasted 15 yrs of my life thinking being loving and compassion would trump my laundry list of sexual hang-ups? Hang-ups that run so deep I can't even bring myself to explore them in a game without feeling uncomfortable.

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KOKAYI0052 years ago(+1)

I'm sure my sister just likes to argue and challenge me because she doesn't like me focusing on trying to be good all the time. I think she just wants everyone to see the grays in the black and white of life. But im the guy who never plays the villain story route in games. I like sex and romance. But I don't need it to be too hardcore. But then again I'm virgin and 37 years old, so sometimes feel like I'm the one who doesn't get how the real world works. I just had to ask someone. And I think the guy who made this game is a student of psychology. So I thought he'd understand. Thanks for the support.

MrSilverLust2 years ago(+2)

This is just a lewd game where I want to pass the message that it is okay to like whatever weird kink we might have. And if one’s kink is romance, cuddles and happy sex, without any “wild” thing added there, that’s absolutely okay. In fact, the majority of people are into that, and also don’t like all the other more kinky stuff.

KOKAYI0052 years ago

Okay. Alright then.

I just had to get it off my chest man. I don't hate kinks, I just don't go far with mine.

Sometimes it's hard to not brood over your love life.

yourholyhomework2 years ago (1 edit)

dude you are not even missing out. i have been coerced into stuff several times. you just feel dirty. and most of the time, even if you do want to do it, these women have no idea how to please a man.

work on yourself, become whole and well-rounded. fun is important too, but only when you need it. unless your sister has a ring/LTR i can't imagine she should be giving relationship advice.

the point is to not kinkshame other people. problem with that though is vanilla rarely gets that same respect...

KOKAYI0052 years ago

I hear you. I am going to work on myself. I'm going back to working out and trying to be positive. My sister isn't married but I don't think she ever wants to be. Ultimately I think what she says from from petty sibling rivalry. A one-sided one at that. Vanilla stuff like romance and tenderness aren't kink shamed often but the world has really changed. All the time songs are being made that are celebrating wilder stuff. Like painplay and sexual cruelty. People are more into that stuff now, on some level, because anything vanilla is considered boring. Like say kissing, basic sex, and cuddling after. People don't really see you as being open-minded if that's where you stop. Because they see all the hardcore stuff as more brave and exciting.

I'm sure lot of those people have a good time but I'm not gonna fake it. I honestly just can't pretend I like most of what is on the list of fetishes and kinks in the game. Some I'm okay with, some I love, and plenty I hate. I just hope Lea, Bri, and Jen don't get too odd with their desires or I'm gonna have no one to romance. Lol for the most part I feel like if I was in the game I would drawn to them. The 3 of them combined sum up my personality. Working all the time, trying to accomplish something, lots of body shaming done to me ruining my self image and chances with relationships. And ultimately me become mad at other people's who are in relationships and ruin them just for drama or boredom. Culminating with me being alone for over 15 years.

But at least I haven't given up.

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