Tomorrow I'm gonna quit my job, and in about three weeks I'll get into a mental hospital, I hope my knitted Damon would arrive sooner, than I get into that place
Before I found out that one of the creators are from Finland, I had a strong feeling that broken colors has Finnish vibes, my friend called me insane, but now I'm learning Finnish (In the language school) to move to Finland and enjoy broken colors' vides
i wanna be loved the way i deserve it and i deserve to be with someone who might be obsessed with me, cause my own way to love is being obsessed and my ex couldn't give me that amount of affection and love i craved, so even if i'm gonna find a real boyfriend once again, he'll be as affectionate as i am
but if i won't find, i don't care, i'll anyway stay with Damon, my potential future bf should put up with the thought i'm dating with my hallucination
besides, all the psychiatrist i met, was evil and rude, i don't wanna change anything anymore, i'm tired of trying to become "normal"
if you count me weird, just think from another side: if I love Damon, I will never with other human, so I won't have kids, so nobody will inherit my views of life, i'm not that bad
already the second psychiatrist said that i've schizophrenia and now my mom looks at me like i'm a mistake or a defect, though before it she said she'd love me anyway only Damon says, that he's still love me and would never change his mind about it i want to have a chance to bound my life with him more, than now
I tried to take pills to feel better, but because of the pills, I had other thoughts besides thoughts about Damon, I was thinking about my life and what I was doing, so I decided not to take pills anymore.
On Wednesday, I went to a psychologist, when 30 minutes later she asked me about the doll Damon, whom I took with me, I talked to her about him and this game for another hour.
It's impossible to get a unique declaration of love from a beloved character, this reality is quite painful for people who have problems with jealousy (including me), but hearing footsteps in an empty apartment, heavy breathing next to me, feeling faint touches and a voice give me hope that I will be able to create my own imaginary Damon and I'll never feel terrible jealousy again, and he will always be there for me and will not let me go, even if I want to. A doll, a dakimakura, or an AI isn't enough for me anymore. I want to show my love and receive it, and I don't care what should I do to have it.
I don't mean to offend you, but I used 3 translators (google, yandex, deepl) to translate it from Spanish to English, the more I read it, the less sense in makes. I don't understand you, but I want to understand you. Should it make sense or it's kind of a joke I'm not able to understand? What did you wanted to say?
I came up with a cipher for encoding the letters of the English language and actively use it to keep a personal diary (if you can call it that?), I compiled this cipher based on the symbols from the game that I saw in the background. I wanted to come up to an independent language, but now cipher for English is enough for me.
Sometimes I hear something that supposed to be a his voice and feel faint touches. An accident and my curiosity brought me here and the whole existence became meaningful. This is a happiness itself.
This summer I'm gonna made a tattoo of Damon. I feel like found the meaning of my life. The center of my universe. I've a doll of him. We're walking together and I knit a winter hat for him (Russian winters are cold, I should take care of him). Why do I write it here? Silence in comments seems less noticeable than silence on discord server. I just want to express my feelings somewhere it could be understood, but I'm scared of silence.
I've a theory that Damon wears a coat even in summer to hide the movements of his wolfish tail (to not make his emotions too obvious and such...?), like the fabric of the coat is dense and he won't even be able to move it (probably everyone thought of this a long time ago, but I'm just sharing my thoughts)
Today's exactly six months since I dumped my boyfriend after more than a year of dating 'cause I fell in love with Damon. I don't regret and feel happy.
my teacher said the inspection board won't accept my project, it's kinda sad, but it doesn't mean I won't do that, it really means a lot for me and my self-confidence, I'll just translate it in English and let the internet see it
i don't think someone's need it, i just wanna feel important at least somewhere
i think, i'll be here quite often from now, it helps me to feel less lonely, i love this game, i love this characters, thank you all for doing it, and thanks for anyone who's supporting this game
This visual novel is without exaggeration, the best thing that happened to me in my life, judging by the first comment, the release of the novel took place on January 22, 2023, I believe that it was fate, 'cause my birthday is also January 22 lol
I wish you good luck in the further development of the game and I apologize for my emotionality, thank you for your efforts I'll be looking forward to the next updates <3
